Christmas just passed, and in a couple of days, we're entering 2013, the year people thought we would never have the chance to live through it. But here we are, celebrating New Year in the next 48 hours. I am back in KL for Christmas and will be flying back 2 days before my finals and until now, I haven actually touch my books, yet I'm here - blogging. Friends in Sarawak questioned me if I will be able to study for finals when I'm back here. To me, for the past 19 years of living, I have been celebrating Christmas with my family and extended families. Christmas do not mean anything if I don't get to see my family and attend mass in a group of 30. That's why I came back. As much as finals are important, family comes first. I wouldn't want to miss the family gathering where we only see some of them once a year, the good home cook food with turkeys, macaroni, shepherd's pie and mouth watering Christmas cake. Did I forget to mentioned about the whole night dancing thing and attempts running away from snow sprays? It is a season of laughters and joy. I would never want to miss any of it. The Benedicts have a tradition to uphold :) and I will make sure my children will be part of it someday, in the future :)
In 2 days, I'm officially entering adulthood. The beginning of freedom, they say. But it seemed more to the beginning of bigger headaches and heavy decisions waiting ahead me. I don't know how will my future be, but for my past 20 years, I have been living a good girl's life. No drinking, no clubbing, and no night life. Label me as boring? Yeah, I would so too. Sometimes I would question myself.Why don't I try, for once to join my friends for clubbing? Or to drink? Or to stay up and hang around till 3 am? But, I really can't imagine myself stepping into a club, or loitering around in the city after midnight. I cannot stand the deep, stinging alcohol's fragrance, the disco lights that changes colour faster than a blink of an eye, the crowd in a small platform, and the blasting speakers that could cost me my hearings. I would rather stay home or go for a movie. Bake some cake or cookies. Make new dishes or go window shopping. I am living a simple and boring life, but I'm enjoying and living it to the fullest. Most important is that I am happy. I have good companies, true friends, happy family and a good life :)
The reason I'm writing this is because I heard from my dad that a few of his working colleagues are suffering from kidney failure and cancer. One of them have been given 48 hours to live, and from what I heard, he has just migrated a few hours ago. If I were to be in his position, what would I possibly feel, or think? I guess I just wouldn't want any regrets in life. So far, I've been living a good life. Hopefully, I will have a good future, a good career, a good husband and a happy family. I don't need 5 figure salary, as long as it is enough to support my family and provide my parents and the people who have brought me up with love and care, I will be satisfied. (but if I can get 5 figure, its better right? :P)
So before we end 2012, let us ponder on how well did we lived it? :) I've been working for 9 months and entered a local uni in September. Until now, I'm doing the same thing every, single, day. A pretty boring 2012 for me, I know, so I hope 2013 will be more exciting, and fun. I hope that 2013 will be a better year for everyone, and we will live in good health, and wealth, more laughter and tears of happiness, less conflict and problems, and finally peace and prosperity :)
To all my friends, thanks for the good times and let the bad moments be a good lesson.
To my family, I couldn't be more grateful for being a part of this family. Thank you for all the love we've shared.
And to my half, thanks for putting up with my temper and being there for me, and loved me as how you did from the very beginning of our journey :)
Let bygones be bygones,
learn from the mistakes,
and let's make new memories :)
Happy ending and welcome to a new beginning! :)
