#QOTD

I want to dedicate this writing to a good friend of mine.
She have shown me so much care, love, and sincerity since we've known each other.
She has been a great friend, a great teacher, a great housemate, and a great "mom".

Recently, things have been really rough for her.
She has always seemed strong from appearance. yet actually fragile in the inside.
Just like every other strong object, they have a weak point.

I pray that she finds the courage and strength to overcome these obstacles cause,

After every rain, there will be rainbow.

and yours will be right after this storm :)

p/s : Knowing you is one of my greatest blessing.

Love,
C.

Lately, there have been a couple of incidents that had made me ponder on the things I've been prioritizing. 

#MH 370
#car accidents
#a friend's colleague passed away a couple of months after her wedding

Life is short. Life is fragile.
And it is not worth to waste it on moments that take the happiness out of us.
Be it for people or matters, its our perception that changes everything.

Those that brings you down should be shun away from.
and matters that puts a frown on your face should be viewed from a different perception.

A cup can is half empty? or half full? Your choice.

 

 

No One Is Perfect; Try To Love Them Anyway

They’re going to hurt you.

They’re going to lie to you.

They’re going to say things that they simply cannot take back.

They’re going to have bad days, and they might even take it out on you.

Because people are people. And at their core, there is an inherent vulnerability.

I envy those who are having fun in uni life.

I envy those who have lots of friends.

I envy those being close to home.

I envy those being able to explore.

and I envy those who are happy.

Looking at my life, I thought I have none of these. But as I go through what have I been through and gather my memories and feelings that my brains have been selectively kept aside, I realized that I do – in those tiny little ways that we’ve never realised. Just like how we’ve always expected big things in life but the truth is that they are made of small fragments that completes the big picture.

In mass, the church choir sang beautifully, and a verse did hit straight at me.

“I am my own enemy”

And indeed, I am.

For having negative thoughts.

For developing anger.

For the envy and the loath feeling towards others.

And I feel it all because I allow myself to.

Because I compare too much and I care too deep.

Comparing what others have and I don’t.

I care too much that often I neglect my own thoughts and happiness.

I care too much to not even realize I am angry for not defending myself.

In other words, I am going against my own aphorism – I don’t live to please others.

And because of that, I forgot what it was like to be happy.

Recently, I’ve been hit by the anger wave and it hasn’t really subsided at all.

My mood swings faster than I’ve ever know.

At one moment, I could be fond of you and the next instance, I’m feeling angry.

­­­­­­­Today, is Ash Wednesday, marking the beginning of Lent season.

And for every lent, we should practice abstinence.

And for this lent, it would be my anger.

I made a mistake.

and now, I pay for it.

Happy 24th anniversary to dad and mom :)

Love you, always.